Friday, September 15, 2006

surprise PPLE!!! ii removed my password lerhs... yeaps... for a purpose which later all of u will know... hahas... its 5 days since i last scold vulgarities!! hahas... YES!!! im nearing iit... aniway... ii benefited ALOT from adam khoo workshop... cried for 2 days... realli.... tears and joy... make me realise and treaure alot of things... although they tell alot of stories.. but guess wad? it realli benefited me!!! hhas... thanks adam khoo... ii finally know my direction and aims of life... even if i dont do it for myself... i do it for my parents.. they brought me in here... i will and i can.. i will not take things for granted now... day 3 was the most touching moment... ii hug my friends tight and we cried... for the first time... ii know that we dun habe much time together lerhs... ii will treasure them... motivation... yeapp.. ii got it... but i wonder... how long will they realli last for me?? but i know... as long as i perserve... ii willl succeed... thanks melvin... adam... wayne... gary and eugene... for the wonderful 3 days... at the end of O level i willl send u a mail... and make u pple... to be PROUD for me... =) hahas... day 3... was the appreciation night... whereby parents came understand us alot more... wad surprise me most... was tat alot of pple... took the courage and went up to stage... they said their dreams and tell their troubles... that scene touchEd miie... ii wanted to go up... but ii dun hab the courage and dun hab the time... so... here my CONFESS...

to papa and mama: thanks for being by my side since the day i was born... thank for bring my out to this world... ii know i had did alot of things whch realli agitated u all... lied to u all... and stuff like tt... but deep down... ii wan to say... I LOVE UU MUM AND DAD!!! hahas....

below are 2 real surprise and it realli tooks loads of courage to do this.... and ii need some kind hearted pple to go infrom them to come and see...

to DAMIEN CHOW WEIJIE(u know whu u are)- wad i wan to say is. i duno for wad reason u hate me so much... and for that reason... i must hab did something that realli freaked u out... if not... u wont do this to me... walking pass u everytime... uu scolded nasty remarks... ii hated uu... and uu hated me... when will this war ever stops? so now... after attending adam khoo... ii realise alot of things.. so here i am... apologising to uu... although ii didnt realli know wad happen... or wad i did makes u hates me so much... wad i wans to say is... lets stop this war... im sorry for wadever i did... and i sincerely hope that u will forgive me... i no nid u to be my friend.... but at least... we are not enermy... we onli left 45 days before our face totally disappear in front of each other... nobodi know... maybe 50 years down the road... we may see each other in the road... ii hope that we will be saying HI.. and not still staring at each other looking as if i killed ur family member... ALSO to ur GROUP of friends... stop all this nonsense and get on with life... im not trying to gain pity or wad... i just dun wan to take things for granted... and i dun wan to have regrets for life... i had done wad i should and it now onli depends on how u pple accept iit... u may will go on this joke... but... i had already done my part... accept or not is up to uu.. maybe... send me a thre msn or here... to tell me ur conclusion...

to rachal.... guess this war of us had already been going around for 2 years lerhs... its time to stop lerhs... after this two years... HOWEVER... ii still notice that we are be back into friends anymore.... but wad i wanted to say is tt... im sorry for wadever i did that hurts u and im sincere... maybe all the backstab stuff i did had hurt u in any way... i apologise... our char just dun match and i doubt that we will be friends anymore... but the same thing is... ii wan this war to stop.. i will stop saying things about u... and thats a promise... all this apology that i make... is just to take resposibility to wad i had done....

to teckleong, kelly, joelle, angeline, jasmine, joanna, tina, tiantian, ronald, sathiya, maya, begum and all those u hurts... ii wanted to apologise to u all know TT incident... sorii for all the stuff i did... im myself already.. tanks for helping me to find myself backk... ii will change... and im already veri satisfied in the current situation... of course... ii hope that things will improve... lastly... sorry.. and FRIENDS FOREVER!!!

im one step to my goal... ii belief in this and i done actions... maybe a soorryy doesnt means anything to anyone... but nobodi know how much courage it takes for me to post it here... all the pride that i use to have.. i have forsake iit... and type all this out with the risk of maybe having pple to laugh and make fun of me... but know wad? ii DONT care... if u people thinks that doing this makes u all hapii.. so be iit... 45 days will pass soon,,, and soon... we will neber meet again... whether to spend this 45 days with u ppl walking pass me and scoldng all the vulgarities or just kip every as normal... is all up to uu... i got nth more to say,,,, this is my confession...

Written @10:19 PM