Monday, October 16, 2006

bloody com... forget to save the last draft then kena deleted.. nvm.. can retype... hmm.. today morning late for skool.. cox dun realli feel like waking up.. then ms yati called me.. so i went to skool at around eng lesson lorhs.. then reach thre.. saw quite little pple.. then after that.. saw kh gp and kelly. so hardworking doing maths.. so i took out maths TYS and started doing... menghui helped me.. then chze hao helped them.. then i too toopid liaox larhs.. cant seems to get wad mh teach me.. then after that i sat thre.. doing...then berii funny lorhs.. ch suddenly ask kelly.. uu nose got hole arhs? then we all laughed.. kh replied.. nope... its a black head.. then we all laughed... then he sae.. if we realli wana study... cannot be together.. cox we waste alot of time... then after that ii tok to myself... -1+-2=-3.. then kh laughed.. saw i weak... simple calculation also duno... idoit.. but frankly.. im realli the weakest in maths in that row... haishx... anyway... recess... then ish geog lesson.. got the news the sec 4 and 5 need no attend assembly.. AIYO!!! first time in my life ever wanted to attend it... but too bad... then went to music room for lesson... didnt realli pay attention.. i was hearing the co playing.. hahas.. then chatted with fiona bout the nicest piano i ever saw... then after that went back to klass.. saw chze chong.. wana to make fun of him.. end up called wrong name... paiiseh sias.. then went back... do maths again... hahas,.. then is contact time.. ms yati sae mrs song retiring... sian 1/2.. somehow.. looking backk the time.. must realli thank hre.. she company us thru our sec life.. although we dun like her... but no doubt... the skool rules is realli not bad... not strict okie... mrs song.. we will miss u!!! hahsa... at least.. I will... then after that i went toilet.. come back... toopid joelle threw a winnie at me.. then we started the sepak takwar.. duno hwo to spell... but i just cant seems to kick.. toopid mie.. then went to canteen ate a burger,, then off to CWP~~ with kelly... we went to watch "rob b hood"... nice show sehs... laugh and cry laugh and cry. didnt regret spending my time thre.. but saw hao and jie when buying tickets... they decided to gib up watching "silk" after we pyso them.. hahas!!! then went in lorhs.. aafter movie.. slowly walked down.. saw yiai jiejie... she coming my skool got O level!!! same as yiyi..~~~ nicey!!! hahsa... then went to buy drinks.. then decided to go home l0rhs.. then sms zpt... none replied... haishx... came home and did maths...now online lorhs..

sometimes i realli wonder... should i be happi that i enjoyed the day with u guys? or be sad... felt that we are drifting more and more apart... no longer like the past... isit me or ni men?? ii tink ish me bwahs.. if i nebo ever appear in ni men derhs life.. wad would life be for me?? ii duno.. didnt regret making friends with u guys.. just felt that... when one day im in trouble.. the first person or groups that came to my rescue... would no longer be u guys already... we are no longer the same... zapt... a ish lost.... lost in a world.. whereby u all had once pulled her out.. but now... its no longer usefull.. the door in her heart has closed.. nobodi can walks in.. not even her... sometimes ii realli thinking... will anyone shed a tear for me when im dying? perhaps no bwahs... can see that u guys are no longer interested or dun even wana care bout my stuff anymore... am i tinking too much? ii realli hope that the answerr is YES... but.. incident and incident.. has shown that my fear has came thru... u guys are leaving me... this is the result... i acceptted it... becox.. ii can do nth to change it... wad can i do now? nth.. becox im not longer the "lead" of the group... im just an extras... whereby.. this show no longer need this extra anymore... im a serious failure... cant even succeed in anything.. u all told me once.. that u all were my family... now??? kick me away.. im not angry or wad.. just... that... i lost hope lerhs.. this is it... -im dead-.... =...

Written @9:48 PM